I NEVER ASKED

I never asked…

I’m back in my seat

Watching from distant luna-tic shores

If you ask for my location

It will be unbelievable at best

There are so many shades of blue

I cannot decipher one from another

Contact is eaten - in detriment or release?

The situation has come around

With shocking unexpectedness

That I should miss you

And that is much worse

Than the stressful boundaries

We created in the sand

I never asked …

I’m sitting cross-legged

As the demons battle upon midnight edges

If you ask why I’m leaving

It will be understandable at most

You placed me here; amongst electric

Amongst chaos, within cyan blindness

Inside Azure - muddied to Prussian hues

A coffee cup rests against my cheek

As the noise of the air around me

Becomes too obvious to my ears

I have abandoned the memories

Of prismatic reflection

in asphyxiated limbo

Resist restraint and my rattling position

Precarious - a calm surface

And somewhere inside

I am quite distressed

Which is unbearable

A non-penetrable waste

“I’m lyin … I am afraid”

My lies are shown in truth

unrealised and denied

I didn't know

Never thought to ask

I woke from my false, insipid dream

and realised my human-ness

I'mhurtsorry

I never asked

I never asked

I never asked

Will showing distress reveal my weakness?

Will you hate me for cracking

in uncommon situations?

What is this? Really?

No control group exists

to appease your mind

Just a wash of surgical sapphire

Released in love, of course

I never even asked

Maybe stupid questions

should remain unspoken (asked?)

Ego and [alter] are merged now

I never asked

I should ask

Do I need to let go?

*I've let go

~ Leccie 2010

SRWB 2010